Breakup, funny thing... and not funny haha... more funny-makes-you-go-back-down-mind-path-of-former-life-experiences... I was thinking back to my former men, there is my darling Sverrir, I really REALLY loved him, he was so great, he taught me alot about myself, about other people and about life. Then there was Birtingur, I fell for him, head over heels but he also taught me a thing or two about people for, instance love is not enough, and big macho men can be the biggest cowards. Then Tom, my dear sweet love Tom. He affects me somewhere I can't even see, he makes the little voice inside me sing, but there is something missing, the little voice is happy but like so many times before my body wrecks it, I know if we were together I could be happy but I am a human being whith a slightly more active libido then most people I know.. I need to be touched and sadly he can't, my body wrecks everything. First man, happy, but my body was curious, allthough so was my mind, first disconnection was understandable. My body then tied me to the seckond one, put me in chains to him and I still am caught, whenever he decides he wants to, he can pull on those chains and im back by his feet groweling, hoping that I will be good enough... anyway I diagress. My body, mind and heart seem to decide things for themselves... what am I if not my mind, heart and body, did I choose these men or did sperate parts of me decide this? I dont know I'm pretty lost here.

What is love? which part of you contains it? Does it reside in your body? your mind? your heart? is it the voice? the chains? the curiousity and needs? what is it?

My darling boys, each and every one, platonic love, physical love, emotional love, they are so dear to me.. love or hate they are important to me. I wish I could hold them close, keep them in a room where I can visit them, tend to them like flowers, my own personal harem. They teach me so much... maybe sometime they can teach me something about myself :) help me find my way, that would be so incredably nice.

Now I depart :P hope you enjoyed and even got a little intellectually stimulated.

~Peace... peace has no chains... but it must have love